Yesterday night got a fight with my mother again, this time she beats me. Same thing, scolded me for not having a job, nag and nag and nag, like a nagging machine. Really hates the word "USELESS", and so i scolded back, ended up she raised her hands to beat me for scolded back. I have "REN" for very long already lo... Once i started to rebel, she cursed me that next time my child will treat me bad DOUBLE and i will get my retribution!!! I can't control myself anymore, so ended up scolding back. She's like a mad woman in front of me, started using her "claw" to scratch me till my hand bled a bit and the skin tore a bit, i can't let her continue, so i pushed her away, and she started accusing me for beating back, cursed me that i will be strucked by the thunder for beating mother. *SAD*

Then she wanna chase me out of home, called me to stay with Bee, and called him to support me. But she knew that both of us are still young, we dun have the capability to support ourself yet, but yet she used this type of sentence to prove that she got the power and i must still depend on her...
I HATE myself, Hate myself for not having money with me, hate myself for being useless, need to get money from her.. If not all these wun happen..

And then she kept pusing the door, and wanted to shoo me to get out of the home, but luckily LI helped me to block the door from letting her in... And then she gave up.

Life is meaningless to me, having such mother...
Luckily i still have my second sister with me, without her support, think i will end my life...
Really thanks Li a lot.. Love u so muchh...

This morning, mother really din give me money to eat and also nv cook my dinner.. She really did wad she said yesterday...
And then Just now went to my aunty's house and complaint everything to her... And so glad that my aunty said that i shall come to her house to eat if my mum din give me to eat. Love my sec aunt and uncle so much.. They are very kind person, consoled me and making me better... thks thks..

And while i was feeling depressed, my phone rang, saw a weird number, actually decides not to pick up one, but dunno why i still pick up to see who is that who called me so late. And then.... Is See Leng, my sec sch friend, she saw my blog and knew that i need job urgently, so she intro me to her working area to work as Admin, but then i have to send my resume first and have an interview from her boss~!!
Finally i see some light, although it may be 10% chance, but i shall try my best, and hope i could success this time..
Really thanks See Leng for giving some hopes when i am feeling real depressed...
I hope i can get this job!!!
Shen ar.. Jiu Jiu Wo Ba!!!! God please help me!!!!

I need a JOB!!! Who got LOBANG plsssss...
Super stress la...
This morning had a BIG quarrel with my mother, kept saying me useless, studied till poly and can't find a single job!! Some more said that gave me studied poly also no use, cos i din find a related job, is not i dun wan, is bcos i am not interested in it!!! I can't do a simple programming, and how am i going to survive in IT line??? Super sian. haiz... Why am i borned in this world??

Just now a person called, i thought i got hope le, BUT after he knew that i am a diploma student, he started to think twice, kept sying that its a waste for me to work as admin, then he said he will CALL BACK again.. sigh... Wad to do?? i can't do programming... If all called and told me the same thing, think i will go and DIE liao!
People might think i siao ar? Can slowly find wad.. But my PARENTS have drive me to the extend. STRESS!!! Felt like crying la.. If everytime got scoldings from them, even if i go out with my Bee, they also scold me for going out, said that i got no jobs and still can go out gaii gaii...
Who's going to help me, is not i din find job, is jobs don't find ME!!! Total i have sent 8 resumes. But only 1 replied!!!

SAD LIFE...

Today was a terrible day for Bee and me, both of us went out at around 2pm, decided to catch a movie, Norbit, went all the way to cineleisure to watch. But when we reached there, Bee then found out that he had left his wallet at home, and my happy mood dropped rapidly to the bottom *mind blank*. We took an hour to reach town, and then he told me that he had left such important stuff at HOME!! And so we got nothing to do, but to went all the way back to bukit batok and get his wallet.
Whole journey back home, i didn't talk at all, felt super sian, happy day spoilt like this..

And so we went back to take the wallet and took taxi there, it was already 5pm when we reached cineleisure once again. Went there for dinner, super duple hungry, had not been eating since morning, dinner was the only meal for the day, therefore i was like hungry ghost, ate tom yam mee, and i can't felt my stomach filling, so bought ice-cream with bread to eat, and bought tidbits for the show at 7.40pm.
Luckily the show is nice, else my temper sure raised to the extend. Norbit was a comedy show, acted by Eddie Murphy (Spelled correctly?), in the show he acted as two roles, a toot guy and a fat and rough woman, quite funny la, worth watching...

After the show, actually wanted to go far east for shopping one, but so sad, when we stepped into the mall, all shops have closed. Wad a disappointed scene to me.. sigh.. Everything didn't go smooth today. sian.
But Bee promised to bring me out early on friday for my shopping.. ^^

Feel bad now.. Why can't my temper be controlled? Forgot to bring his wallet out also not his fault, but still i raised my temper at him and not standing with him, he felt sad too, and i knew it, but...
Haiz.. I am really bad, bad, bad...

Yup here are pictures, continued from last post.. Please be patient.. There are many coming up..

Continued on pictures for 1st day of new year..




Taken last friday..



Took all these pictures last friday at Segar LRT, it was raining heavily on that day, therefore two bo liaoz aunties admired themselves by taking all these pictures.

3 Mei nus taking pictures at home.


And Now...
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Welcome the...
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The 3 blind Mice







Mice Queenie

Mice Ting

Mice Wawa

Some disgusting pics coming up.. Haha.. Don't see if u can't take it. LOL =p




LOL!! I know we are MAD!! But it's really fun taking pictures with both my sisters.. Haha~
Feel that pictures no need to be beautiful for every shots taken.. Else it will be boring or fake.


Wooo~ We look so fair in this pic... nice...


The normal us. haha.z


The gurls in my family..

Went out with my mother to buy some soft drinks for new year, and 3 of us took these...




Me and my Da Mei Mei

My cutie Xiao mei mei...

Now..
Show all of you some photoshop edited pics~! Done by my second sis ==
Ng Li Li
(lol, this girl called me remember to state down her name)

Here comes the SUPERWOMAN!!!

Ta Dang~~



Haha.. Incredible right??? Hey... Me also got effort de lo.. Carried a big fat pig, and ended up deleted me away.. LOL.. So must show the back end ppl.. =.=


Yeah!! End of that Day~~!!

And now...
Pictures taken on sec day of new year





Us and our cousin - Qing Jing...

Our Ugly faces

4 Pigs presented for this year, new year.


MEMEMEMMEMEMMEMEMMEMEME


USUSUSUUSUSUSUSUSUSUSUS


Li and my cousin- YiRu

And Ya finally this is the last picture le... Think my blog is going to be super lag with all these pics..

Hmm.. so just bear with it ar.. Slowly wait for it to load ba! ^^

Good night friends..

Woo~ Public holiday is finally over, felt a bit sian la.. Still got the new year mood lo.. Know how i spent my new year? TON! haha.. New year eve, i ton at my second aunty's house, watched tv chit chat with my cousins till next day 8am, and then slept for only 3 hours.
After the 3 hours, my father's side relatives called, and told us that they are coming to our house for visit. So woke up and prepared myself, spent the whole day outside to bai nian, ta han with my poor 3 hours of sleep. (@_@)

And then second day, went Chun dao he pan with my anuties and cousins, and also not forget my Bee..
After the whole thing, ton at my small aunt house again till 3am, and i woke up at 10am the next day, to prepare to go my ah ma's house for steamboat, together with Bee..
After having our steamboat, me and Bee actually wanna go for a midnight show one, but when we went to west mall, all latest time are over le. Therefore we ended up watching no show, so we went to my house playground there to chat till 1am. And so reached home, and now typing out this entry. Going to become Panda soon... Now my eyes are a bit heavy, difficult to open also, so got to sleep soon after posting some pictures for these few days...


The 1st day of New Year~!






*Chu Chu* Both are my hands wor!

Aiyoh.. there are many more pictures to post, but too tired already, though i am looking at the computer, but my sprit is on my bed now...
Think i will post them other days..
Zzzzzzzzz
Good night everyone..

See Bee tml... ^^

Happy New Year Eve To Everyone~!!!

Must enjoy yourself and also to get many many ang baos wor~
New coming year, remember don't get angry, don't sweep floor, don't scold people ya! Else will be unlucky one~ Lol~ Aunty i know.. haha

Got the new year mood now.. Usually i will ton over with my bunch of cousins during new year eve, haha and now i dun feel like sleeping at all.. o_o
Think the first day of new year, my relatives will see a panda (@_@) coming their house for visit. hahaz~

In the afternoon, went out gaii gaii with my sister, went lot 1 to shop for some accessories, then bought myself FOOD and nail polish.. Where else my sis went there to get her salary from Iora.

Just logged in to friendster, and get so flared up with it! I can't upload photos to my friendster, the upload button is disabled!!
Dunno wad the hack happening to it, tried many times, and then GAVE UP! sianz..

Some pictures to post, continued from yesterday...

Picturess Posting Time... There's Many today, just bear with it arh! =)

Queenie and Wawa.

See?? We do have similar faces... Of cos we do have, cos we are SISTERS!! =.=


Our "Moustache"

Retarded face, haha.. Learnt from fang dong cheng from Fei lun hai. lol.. 90% alike!

Oh my.. My younger sis looks so Kawaiii in this pic!!!

Flowers~

(Left) See wad is 3rd sis doing... lol.. (Right) Wad are they two doing.. haha so funny..

CUTE~

3rd sis really pattern more then badminton sia...

SAN JIE MEI... 3 flowers...

Kk.. Logging off, got to sleep, else got dark circle wun look good for new year.. hehe
Nightz my friendsss... Bee...

Wednesday was Valentine's day, but didn't spend lots of time with Bee, due to my presentation and also Bee's Media Corp stuff, and so we just had our dinner, and then nothing much for that day.. =(
Therefore, we went out on thursday again to mend for v.day, we took stickers and had our Italian food. Though it's 15/02, but still we wrote 14/02 on the sticker, lol.. hmmm.. Know a bit idiot la, but then "pretend" la~~ =D
Bugis sells lots of new year food, passed by a stall and saw those muach chee and jelly, felt like eating, so we bought some to eat, and it costed us $5!! Damn expensive la!! Think i just ate a few only.. While enjoying the jelly, we saw michelle and Camelia.. LOL~ have a short chat with both of them, time flies fast, still remember the day when Mic has just entered IRAS, but now, she has finished her IPP, seems like it happens few days ago..

Bee shopped for his jean, and bought himself a jean from S&K.
Actually nothing much, we spent the day on shopping, eating, sitting, gossiping, gossiping, sitting, eating, shopping ..... ETC.
This is how we ended our day.
Though it's simple.
But it will always be a happy day with him. My King, Darlingz, Bee..

Just now i tried to explore photoshop (lol.. The program i "gabo" from school network)
And i managed to try out some new skills...
Shall post it now...

BEFORE==========AFTER



I LOVE this pic!!!!


See the difference?? I have "Dyed" my hair to GREEN! haha






Created by Second sis... The WAWA~ *Applause* -.-


Bee edited this pic for me~~^^


Haha.. since Bee edited one for me, then i shld edit pictures for him too~~

Before~

After~


BEFORE

AFTER~ Woo~~~ Nice nice, i am getting more and more creative!!! lalala~



Below are non edited pics... sian. Tired already~~ LOL~



Lastly.. Our neo prints for today~~
Loving It~

Designed By The King



Designed By The Queen


So tired now... Blogged this entry for around 1 hour... Wanna sleep already..
Still got many more pictures..
Shall post it tml then...
haha
Nite all my dear readers, friends, beloved, sis, buddies.... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Today will be my second last day in school, no feelings, no "she bu de", haha.. Just miss some of my friends.. Hmm.. Just feel that working life is going to reach soon, will it be a disaster for me?? Sian..
Have been applying jobs, i am looking for admin jobs now, if anyone got lobang, tell me please... I need job urgently.. Else i will be dead without money...
Currently i have applied for M.O.E admin, admin assistant around Clementi and Child care.
Then yesterday i received a letter from MOE, i was happy till siao. I thought i got a job, but then the letter just stated, "Thks for applying MOE admin assistant, there are many applicants applying for the job, therefore you will be competiting with the rest of the applicants, and we regret that only short-listed candidates will be notified. We will be keeping your letter for 2 months, if within this 2 months, you didn't hear from us, which means your application is unsuccessful."
When i saw the word 2 MONTHS, i really sian half, 2 months leh, who will wait right?? 2 months ROT at home just to wait for their phone calls, think there wun be any chance for me, think they just wanted to phrase "Your application is unsuccessful" in a nicer way..
Haiz.. Nvm.. There's still many jobs out there, i shall try all of them, dun believe that i can't get one!!!!

Haha got people ask me why i never put my boyfriend's picture in my blog one. Izzit there's problems in our relationship le? LOL~ Actually nothing happens la.. Just that we seldom take pic, i am the only one who likes to "Zi Lian" that's why my blog mostly are my PICS. haha.. K! Then now i shall put many many of our pics!! Flood the whole entry~~ ^^


This tortoise BEE finally helps my to scan the lovegetti that we took on our anniversary. *LOVE IT*




My nice, caring, clever, lame, siao de Bee..

Pictures taken in the past~ Enjoy~

haha~ Like this pic.. *CUTE*


Taken on 2006 new year.



Tada~ All our pics~





HAHA~ Lastly... ITS Me!!


Just finish editing the layout for my project...
And the finishing layout looks like this~!



My part i am doing about Medical Claim, user can claim their medical fee thru the portal. After creating their claims, they can submit it and wait for the administrator to verify it.
LOL~ Seems hard, machiam i am really that powerful in my programming, but actually i just help to do the layout, as for the programming part, is my teammates help me to do one. LOL~~

Really thanks a lot to my friend, Wei Lun~ if our grp dun have u, think we gonna die soon...
And also thks Yue Ming, thks for the report, my english is damn poor la~ If i am the one doing report, think the grade sure jia lat.
Feel guilty for doing nothing.. The only thing that i can do, is just to help my team to design the layout... Hmmm.. Luckily i still know how to do the dividant sia.. If not, think i am the useless person in my team..
*shake head*
This is why i dun choose to work IT in the future, cos my programming SUCKS to the core~!
...

In the morning before going to school, dunno why i got this feeling to past by this child care center to have a look, which is just 1 block away from my home. Then i saw that there is a vacancy for part time teacher, and my first feel is, i wanted to have a try, therefore i went in for the interview.
The interviewer sugguested that if i got the interest to work in this field, then i shall apply for full time, else if i apply for part time, half of my day will have nothing else to do, and so i agreed.
She said that if they are going to employ me, they will give me a month to try, to see if i can cope with it, and if i am satisfied with it, they will sponser me to study for the Diploma In Early Childhood, when i heard that, i was thinking... huh... taking care of children still must study for that CERT! Haiz.. But working in this field has been my interest since last time, jus that my english for GCE 'O' level has failed that's why i can't pursue my dream, and since now there is a chance, i shall strive for it. I knew it will be hard for me to work and study at the same time, but after 2 years of study, i will be free~
LOL~ I think and think and think when i was taking the train, perphaps i am thinking too much, maybe the person in charge also nv consider to take me in the first place. =.= But i really hope they could give me a chance to try, if i really can cope, i will go Ngee Ann poly to study!! LOL~ And i will be a OLD student there. LOL~
Another thing which makes me can't decide is.. If they are going to take me, Maybe i will have to retake my 'O' level ENGLISH!!! GOSH!!! LOL.. but see first la.. i shall wait for their call FIRST, before i think that much~!!

Sigh~~ How does my future looks like...
I am so worried since last week, seems like i can't decide on wad i wanna do..
*HELP*


HAHA~ i have bought my new year clothes!!!

This is the dress that i bought at Blossom, cost me $49.90 sia... But my mother and sister said it is not NICE!!!! *SOB* *REGRETZ*


Haha my top that i have bought for new year, $29.90 at Bus Stop~ Jolin got wear also wor~~~ ^^


Lastly ME~

*P/s: paiseh.. Too lazy to charge batt for my digital cam, so used my lousy phone to take pic. LOL~ So it's really blurz la..

Sigh.. Wad on earth is happening to me!!! I am cursed by sickness izzit?? First i got cough, then blocked nose, then cold, then flu, and NOW i got RASHES on my elbow, hand and my knee cap!!! So suai lo... New year is coming, and i got so much dai ji!! Haiz...

I am so tired today, feel so weak.. My eyes look so shagged, and i am covered with sickness.. Having COUGH last week, and now it worsened, not only cough, my nose is blocked, and having cold too... Hardly breathe, and kept coughing, going to collapse soon, my head is going to burst!!! Now looking into the pc's screen, i could see double vision.. Feel like taking a nap...

This morning, before going to school, i cooked maggi mee to eat. While i was trying to wash the utensils, i saw cockroach crawling in the sink. Saw its hairy, tiny, stick-alike leg moving about, felt damn disgusting la!! So i tried to "shoo" it away, else i can't continue with my cooking.. Found waste paper, tried damn hard to let it crawl on the paper, but failed many times.. Then finally it landed on the paper, so i quickly brought it to the balcony, and wanted to throw it outside the window, but i din aimed correctly so it fell to the ground, and seemed like it is dying soon, after so long of torture.. So i continued to capture it, but it hided behind the bicycle, while trying to get the bicycle away, i din see it was under the bicycle's wheel, so i put down, the cockroach was smashed by the wheel, and when i took the bicycle up again, the cockroach was like half dead.. yuCKK!!!! Having cold sweat, can feel shiver down my spine...
So i gave up, went to call my dad to throw it.. and i proceeded with my mee..
While eating, i still can picture the cockroach body, it's leg... Damn grosh!!! Yuck!! No appetite to eat my mee... =.=
Told my sister about it and i was like a mad, jumping up and down, kept screaming when i recalled it..
Think i am having.. Cockroach Phobia... =.=

Another news heard from my friend about cockroach..
I believed some ppl still use this method.. Using their saliva when they wanted to seal the envelope. There was this person, who always stick out his/her tongue to apply his saliva to the envelope. One day, he found that his tongue was in pain, he felt something wriggling inside, and so he decided to see the doctor, after some sometime, the doctor found out that, there's cockroach's egg grewing on his tongue, so he went for an operation.
Finally they discovered that those eggs are from the envelope, because usually all these envelopes b4 selling, are kept in the warehouse or wadeva... Therefore insects might passed by the envelopes or maybe laid their eggs on it, which we do not know!
So after hearing all these, remember DON'T use your TONGUE to seal the envelope!!! Use WATER!!!! =.=

Another scary news which my friend let me see..
There was this lady who din wash her new brought bra, and then she just wore it like this..
After some time she saw her breast swelling, so she went to see the doctor, and the doctor discovered that maggots are grewing on her breast!!! Yew!!! There's even a picture showing... Look real grosh!!! But think i dun post it better, later see le got nightmare..
After research, they found out that the bra is dirty, and marggot's egg are grewing on it, cause this to happen...
So in conclusion....
Be more hygenic, wash your new bra before wearing it, u never know where does the bra came from..

My Dreamss...

I hope to get married to my "zhen ming tian zi" at the age of 25.
Hope there's always be World Peace.
I hope i can change myself to be a even better person.
I hope i can have a good career after graduate.
I hope to live happily and healthly. (includes everyone around me)
I hope to have my own design home.
I hope i can lost some more fats.
Hope to have all kinds of Hello kitty collections next time.
Hope my parents won't be so money-minded.

Haha.. These are my dreams.. Hope they can be fulfil... ;)

Hehe.. Yesterday dunno why, i went Lot 1 to buy the soduko book to play.. Find it challenging and you must have the patient to play, else you will give up when stuck.

Sigh... *sad*
This coming new year won't be a new year for me.. My parents said that they got no MONEY, therefore all the "ang baos" that we have, it seems like we are having them, in front of all my relatives, but the fact is... After the whole thing finishes, my mother will take them back.. So which means they didn't give at all. Haizz... Sian.. Then i told her must well we stay at home for the new year, because new year meant nothing to us anymore since we can't take any ang baos...
Sometime really feels that my parents are selfish.. From young till now... We only get to buy clothes during new year, and some more we can only buy 2 set of clothes. Whenever there is any functions, Me and my sis dun feel like going, bcos all my cousins wore nicely there, except for us.. My parents dun even care about whether their child is ugly or not... *SIGH*
But finally waited till so long.. We grown up, we can start earning our own money and buy something for ourselves..
Mum always complaint that we bought too many stuffs, din save or give her more cash.. But did she think? When we are lack of clothes or even those underwears, did she buy for us?? Can u imagine that we have to wash those underwears daily, so that we got enough for one week.. Hahahah.. Really pathetic lo... Like beggar like that... =.= Feel like crying man...
I felt damn stress la... Even after i graduated, they expected me to get a job which the salary will be more then $1400... I dun feel like doing IT next time lo... sigh.. I envy my friends.. They can work whatever they like, and their parents just support them, but me? I got no choice but to pray hard that i can get a high pay job, so that my mum can get more money from me... And wun scold me USELESS!!!

When i am alone at home, i always wonder.. Why i got such parents whom are so money minded? Money doesn't mean anything right? Both dad and mum always quarrel bcos of MONEY!!! Feel that they are "idiots" lo... Bcos of a non living things, quarrel till wanna fight.. *shake head* Human will die anyway... As if those money that we earned can be brought to the hell meh??? sigh...

This is the reason why i hope i can have my own house, my own family at the age of 25.. I hope i can lead my own life, i hope i can do something that i like and no one object me.. I hope my life time partner can support me in everything i do, i hope there will be peace in my own family.. Hope there will only be happiness and no quarrels.. Those things that my parents did, i will remember it clearly, and next time i wun do that to my own child, but treat them even better and give them no saddness but joyness...

Hope this day will come fast....

=Valerie Shi
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To lose Weight!!
A Diamond ring!!
To be Shao Nai Nai!!

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