It's lovee;

.Wednesday, February 28, 2007 ' 1:00 AM Y

Yesterday night got a fight with my mother again, this time she beats me. Same thing, scolded me for not having a job, nag and nag and nag, like a nagging machine. Really hates the word "USELESS", and so i scolded back, ended up she raised her hands to beat me for scolded back. I have "REN" for very long already lo... Once i started to rebel, she cursed me that next time my child will treat me bad DOUBLE and i will get my retribution!!! I can't control myself anymore, so ended up scolding back. She's like a mad woman in front of me, started using her "claw" to scratch me till my hand bled a bit and the skin tore a bit, i can't let her continue, so i pushed her away, and she started accusing me for beating back, cursed me that i will be strucked by the thunder for beating mother. *SAD*

Then she wanna chase me out of home, called me to stay with Bee, and called him to support me. But she knew that both of us are still young, we dun have the capability to support ourself yet, but yet she used this type of sentence to prove that she got the power and i must still depend on her...
I HATE myself, Hate myself for not having money with me, hate myself for being useless, need to get money from her.. If not all these wun happen..

And then she kept pusing the door, and wanted to shoo me to get out of the home, but luckily LI helped me to block the door from letting her in... And then she gave up.

Life is meaningless to me, having such mother...
Luckily i still have my second sister with me, without her support, think i will end my life...
Really thanks Li a lot.. Love u so muchh...

This morning, mother really din give me money to eat and also nv cook my dinner.. She really did wad she said yesterday...
And then Just now went to my aunty's house and complaint everything to her... And so glad that my aunty said that i shall come to her house to eat if my mum din give me to eat. Love my sec aunt and uncle so much.. They are very kind person, consoled me and making me better... thks thks..

And while i was feeling depressed, my phone rang, saw a weird number, actually decides not to pick up one, but dunno why i still pick up to see who is that who called me so late. And then.... Is See Leng, my sec sch friend, she saw my blog and knew that i need job urgently, so she intro me to her working area to work as Admin, but then i have to send my resume first and have an interview from her boss~!!
Finally i see some light, although it may be 10% chance, but i shall try my best, and hope i could success this time..
Really thanks See Leng for giving some hopes when i am feeling real depressed...
I hope i can get this job!!!
Shen ar.. Jiu Jiu Wo Ba!!!! God please help me!!!!

Loved u

.Monday, February 26, 2007 ' 10:48 PM Y

I need a JOB!!! Who got LOBANG plsssss...
Super stress la...
This morning had a BIG quarrel with my mother, kept saying me useless, studied till poly and can't find a single job!! Some more said that gave me studied poly also no use, cos i din find a related job, is not i dun wan, is bcos i am not interested in it!!! I can't do a simple programming, and how am i going to survive in IT line??? Super sian. haiz... Why am i borned in this world??

Just now a person called, i thought i got hope le, BUT after he knew that i am a diploma student, he started to think twice, kept sying that its a waste for me to work as admin, then he said he will CALL BACK again.. sigh... Wad to do?? i can't do programming... If all called and told me the same thing, think i will go and DIE liao!
People might think i siao ar? Can slowly find wad.. But my PARENTS have drive me to the extend. STRESS!!! Felt like crying la.. If everytime got scoldings from them, even if i go out with my Bee, they also scold me for going out, said that i got no jobs and still can go out gaii gaii...
Who's going to help me, is not i din find job, is jobs don't find ME!!! Total i have sent 8 resumes. But only 1 replied!!!

SAD LIFE...

Loved u

.Thursday, February 22, 2007 ' 1:46 AM Y

Today was a terrible day for Bee and me, both of us went out at around 2pm, decided to catch a movie, Norbit, went all the way to cineleisure to watch. But when we reached there, Bee then found out that he had left his wallet at home, and my happy mood dropped rapidly to the bottom *mind blank*. We took an hour to reach town, and then he told me that he had left such important stuff at HOME!! And so we got nothing to do, but to went all the way back to bukit batok and get his wallet.
Whole journey back home, i didn't talk at all, felt super sian, happy day spoilt like this..

And so we went back to take the wallet and took taxi there, it was already 5pm when we reached cineleisure once again. Went there for dinner, super duple hungry, had not been eating since morning, dinner was the only meal for the day, therefore i was like hungry ghost, ate tom yam mee, and i can't felt my stomach filling, so bought ice-cream with bread to eat, and bought tidbits for the show at 7.40pm.
Luckily the show is nice, else my temper sure raised to the extend. Norbit was a comedy show, acted by Eddie Murphy (Spelled correctly?), in the show he acted as two roles, a toot guy and a fat and rough woman, quite funny la, worth watching...

After the show, actually wanted to go far east for shopping one, but so sad, when we stepped into the mall, all shops have closed. Wad a disappointed scene to me.. sigh.. Everything didn't go smooth today. sian.
But Bee promised to bring me out early on friday for my shopping.. ^^

Feel bad now.. Why can't my temper be controlled? Forgot to bring his wallet out also not his fault, but still i raised my temper at him and not standing with him, he felt sad too, and i knew it, but...
Haiz.. I am really bad, bad, bad...

Yup here are pictures, continued from last post.. Please be patient.. There are many coming up..

Continued on pictures for 1st day of new year..

Taken last friday..

Took all these pictures last friday at Segar LRT, it was raining heavily on that day, therefore two bo liaoz aunties admired themselves by taking all these pictures.

3 Mei nus taking pictures at home.

And Now...
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Welcome the...
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The 3 blind Mice

Mice Queenie

Mice Ting

Mice Wawa

Some disgusting pics coming up.. Haha.. Don't see if u can't take it. LOL =p

LOL!! I know we are MAD!! But it's really fun taking pictures with both my sisters.. Haha~
Feel that pictures no need to be beautiful for every shots taken.. Else it will be boring or fake.

Wooo~ We look so fair in this pic... nice...

The normal us. haha.z

The gurls in my family..

Went out with my mother to buy some soft drinks for new year, and 3 of us took these...

Me and my Da Mei Mei

My cutie Xiao mei mei...

Now..
Show all of you some photoshop edited pics~! Done by my second sis ==
Ng Li Li
(lol, this girl called me remember to state down her name)

Here comes the SUPERWOMAN!!!

Ta Dang~~

Haha.. Incredible right??? Hey... Me also got effort de lo.. Carried a big fat pig, and ended up deleted me away.. LOL.. So must show the back end ppl.. =.=

Yeah!! End of that Day~~!!

And now...
Pictures taken on sec day of new year

Us and our cousin - Qing Jing...

Our Ugly faces

4 Pigs presented for this year, new year.

MEMEMEMMEMEMMEMEMMEMEME

USUSUSUUSUSUSUSUSUSUSUS

Li and my cousin- YiRu

And Ya finally this is the last picture le... Think my blog is going to be super lag with all these pics..

Hmm.. so just bear with it ar.. Slowly wait for it to load ba! ^^

Good night friends..

Loved u

.Wednesday, February 21, 2007 ' 1:58 AM Y

Woo~ Public holiday is finally over, felt a bit sian la.. Still got the new year mood lo.. Know how i spent my new year? TON! haha.. New year eve, i ton at my second aunty's house, watched tv chit chat with my cousins till next day 8am, and then slept for only 3 hours.
After the 3 hours, my father's side relatives called, and told us that they are coming to our house for visit. So woke up and prepared myself, spent the whole day outside to bai nian, ta han with my poor 3 hours of sleep. (@_@)

And then second day, went Chun dao he pan with my anuties and cousins, and also not forget my Bee..
After the whole thing, ton at my small aunt house again till 3am, and i woke up at 10am the next day, to prepare to go my ah ma's house for steamboat, together with Bee..
After having our steamboat, me and Bee actually wanna go for a midnight show one, but when we went to west mall, all latest time are over le. Therefore we ended up watching no show, so we went to my house playground there to chat till 1am. And so reached home, and now typing out this entry. Going to become Panda soon... Now my eyes are a bit heavy, difficult to open also, so got to sleep soon after posting some pictures for these few days...

The 1st day of New Year~!

*Chu Chu* Both are my hands wor!

Aiyoh.. there are many more pictures to post, but too tired already, though i am looking at the computer, but my sprit is on my bed now...
Think i will post them other days..
Zzzzzzzzz
Good night everyone..

See Bee tml... ^^

Loved u